| So this spring break, I must say, is sorta a waste. I had planned to hang out with my homies and chill. U no, escape this house, but instead, I was stuck cleaning the day away, in high hopes that during the night time, I would get to go out. Those thoughts turned out to only be thoughts. I haven't left the house 1 time since Friday. Can u feel my pain? Today was the last chance I had to go out with my friends. The friends that I can't even remember the last time I really talked to them, or got to go out with them. The friends that I feel like I'm losing. The friends that I feel lost without seeing them. It's like, I have no connection with my friends, and though I am SUPER thankful for my sister's who let me use their phones to text certain people, it seems like it's not enough. I'm reaching out my hand just to see that I can't reach the other person's hand. I can't even hang out with them anymore, and it hurts me. I miss them so much, but I'm stuck here, where it feels like I'm slowly going crazy. I finally let someone know how I felt, and by me just saying "I want to get out of here" I was already in tears. He helped me a lot. Just by him listening to me, I felt so much better. *Note to self: Thank Him Later* I know this sounds selfish, and in some peoples eyes it is, but who reads Xanga anymore, right? So it's not to much to worry about.
Right now I rather have school, cuz atleast I would be able to see my friends. I love my family to death, but I felt so lost whenever I didn't see Jocelyn and Waldo, and I haven't seen them for weeks. Thank God for Keke and DeAndrea and all of them. School isn't gonna end bad. 2 monthes right? RIGHT!!
But do tell me, is it crazy that I like someone now?? I mean, I haven't liked someone in over 2 years, and now this guy comes into the picture, and makes me feel so...weird. Haha. All my homies r tellin me 2 go with him. To a point, I'm scared, but that's the .1%, the other 99.9% likes him. It's weird. I told DeAndrea about me liking him, and she supported me. So did Jocelyn. So maybe I'll have a prom date?? Ahh, so scared. Ha ha. It's so funny when we are together though. He makes me smile, and not just funny smile, like smile smile, as in I don't care who is around. It's crazy. Ahh, what to do!! haha. We were suppost to hang out this weekend, but due to my Tia and grandma coming in later today, it's not going to happen. 
I know now why I love the internet so much, and my computer. It's entertaining. Youtube is always there, and if not then there's myspace or crunchyroll. But today I found it quite hard to not have my computer. I went and got my sister's phone (Which she let me use, Thank You) and started texting Jocelyn and Irvine. Great people right there. I want to go to Odessa again for the WHOLE summer, but what are the chances of that happening?? Still I have high hopes. Lately, everything seems like it's just...high hopes. Someday, my high hopes will pay off. Or I will just give up completely. Who knows. I go for the pay off. But due to me being home a lot. I have wrote more on my story and read more stories which gives me GREAT ideas on new ones. I also have a new drama that I am in LOVE with, which is over in about 3 or 4 episodes. I'm starting to pick up words in Korean AND Japanese. Not bad ey? Ha ha. The Drama is Boys Before Flowers, I LOVE the Korean Ver. but I am going 2 watch the Japanese ver. soon.
PISO MOJADO!! means "Wet Floor" in Spanish. I don't know if I spelled that right, but that's how I say it. So ha. Well gotta go. Be bak in some monthes, maybe for graduation. Haha. Laterz. 
"I don't wanna cry alone, help me out, search my light, Please take me back home. I don't wanna cry alone, into blaze, lost in maze, someone call my name, I don't wanna cry alone..." |
....I already read all 4 books....and on March 16, 2009...the 5th book will come out...and the movie is out in 2010...SOOO...what this all means...is...me and Jocelyn can slack off....cuz we what's happening and everything else...so yeah..r u ready 4 the ride??....HECK YES MAN!! Lazyness is comming....haha....
